Ok so my so called ''friend'' Zeliegha is such a bitch.. she had the nerve to talk about how i don't got a boyfriend and she do. that's all she think about is boys this and boys that. i'm starting to think she's a hoe. i could have a boyfriend[[anyone could really] but i just choose not to cause all the boys around me are on some major BS. i don't do well with that. just like on monday i'ma let her kno. im not playing with her. she ain't about to talk to me like she want to. im not her child...so on monday when it's just me and her ima tell her to lay off my back because this could get seriously ugly and we supposed to be cool? oh heeelllll to the naww. im not going down like that.
and my other so called''friend'' john. his gay self got a big attitude problem. always getting smart. i don't like to descriminate but he is like sooooooooo gay. he talk about boys and drama, and a lot of other stuff. i don;t do that all the time. he even used to talk about hisself and how he need to get his butt bigger cause it got smallerr???? what type of mess is that? he needs to stop giving me f.cking attitudes.
those are the two ppl that i need to talk to on MONDAY morning. so i'll update and tell you what happened. and who got whooped the most. KIDDING!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
whoaa
ok so i really hate the way my story is going so i'm reverse it. make it FRESHH.
When we reached Maggie's house the lights were off in the whole house. It was pitch black outside. ''Is somebody home?'' TJ asked. Inodded and walked up to the front door. Maggie opened the door with this big smile on her face.'' Hello....welcome. I thought you'd never show. It's like 12:45 rite now. Where do you live like all the way over on Sheralk Lane?'' I winced at the name of my hood. I hated it that much. I looked over at TJ and he said,''Actually we do-,'' i cut him off before he could ruin my life,''Don't. We live like right out on Terry Street. With the big mansions and things. Yeah...it's nice over there. My house has like 6 bedrooms and 2 unfinished ones. You should come some time.'' I invited her because i knew she would say no because she would probably be embarrassed by her house. Which was not that much of a difference from what I described. I peeked over at TJ and he was staring holes through my face. I knew he was disappointed. I walked into the house but she made TJ leave because she couldn't have boys into her house. LIE, because she always talks about how she had Trey over and all that stuff. It was because he had on his work clothes. I had on my same little sundress from that morning. Ibet she thinksor THOUGHT we're poor. I'll prove her wrong.'' So go upstairs and join the other girls.'' I looked at her retardedl, like what is she doing? She said nothing about other girls. As if she was reading my mind she said,'' No girls from school. Just my sisters and my cousins.'' I walked through the house, lost, trying to find her room.Then I walked passed a room that had a pink door with glitter on it that read: MAGGILICIOUS. This has got to be her room. I opened the door and was shocked. I almost passed out. She had mirrors everywhere. A huge bed smack dabb in the middle and the wall had a painting of her face on it with her name in graffiti. She had a nice little soft looking sofa near the door. It was pink and sky blue. Her room was sos huge and colorful. It was paradise. I then noticed the people. I saw a girl with blonde weave,a heavy- set 20-somthing year old,a girl that had thick pink glasses and skinny jeans with a cute little puppy in her lap, a skinny dark skinned girl in a sundress similar to mine but she had hills on, and last a small little tiny 4 foot 11 girl standing near Maggie's bed arguing with the heavy-set 20 year old.''Mar-mar, no she didn't dude! I know her and she did not do something like that. And thats what's up!'' She rolled her eyes and plopped on the bed. The girl in the skinny jeans with the cute hot pink glasses and matching tee walked over to me. It seemed like she was the only girl who noticed me in the doorway.''Hi, my name is Pookie. I heard some stuff about you giiirrl. BUt anyway, have a seat. You can sit over there.'' She pointed to a lush hot pink chair. I walked over and sat down. Then all of a sudden a big tall skinny woman busted in the room and said,'' HUSH! Now that she is here, ya'll older girls better set some examples. Cut that foolishness out.'' She then turned to me. I had a look of fear in my eyes, i could tell. '' Hi sweetie, my name is Margaret. You may call me Marge. I'm Maggie's mother. Nice to finally meet you.'' I smiled, and she reached her hand out. I shook it and the door then busted open and Maggie pushed her mother out of the way.'' MOM!! SOME PEOPLE ARE OUTSIDE, THEY SAID THEY LOOKING FOR MONEE!! WHERE HE AT? HURRYYY!!!!'' She ran out the room and stomped down the stairs. I was kinda creeped out by all this dramatic stuff. First her room,then her family and mother and now this. What else? BOOM!!!! A gun went off. I sinked into my chair. This is supposed to be a nice neighborhood and a nice get together, not a gang meeting. It's nicer than my hood though. So im not complaining. Everybody left the room and stormed down the steps. I was the only one left so I walked to to the stair rail and peeked down. They were all standing in the living room and Maggie was outside in the street. She was yelling into the window of some car. I was definetly scared now. What is going on? I slowly walked down the stairs and sat on a sofa in the living room. I looked at the expression on everyones face. This is not good.
When we reached Maggie's house the lights were off in the whole house. It was pitch black outside. ''Is somebody home?'' TJ asked. Inodded and walked up to the front door. Maggie opened the door with this big smile on her face.'' Hello....welcome. I thought you'd never show. It's like 12:45 rite now. Where do you live like all the way over on Sheralk Lane?'' I winced at the name of my hood. I hated it that much. I looked over at TJ and he said,''Actually we do-,'' i cut him off before he could ruin my life,''Don't. We live like right out on Terry Street. With the big mansions and things. Yeah...it's nice over there. My house has like 6 bedrooms and 2 unfinished ones. You should come some time.'' I invited her because i knew she would say no because she would probably be embarrassed by her house. Which was not that much of a difference from what I described. I peeked over at TJ and he was staring holes through my face. I knew he was disappointed. I walked into the house but she made TJ leave because she couldn't have boys into her house. LIE, because she always talks about how she had Trey over and all that stuff. It was because he had on his work clothes. I had on my same little sundress from that morning. Ibet she thinksor THOUGHT we're poor. I'll prove her wrong.'' So go upstairs and join the other girls.'' I looked at her retardedl, like what is she doing? She said nothing about other girls. As if she was reading my mind she said,'' No girls from school. Just my sisters and my cousins.'' I walked through the house, lost, trying to find her room.Then I walked passed a room that had a pink door with glitter on it that read: MAGGILICIOUS. This has got to be her room. I opened the door and was shocked. I almost passed out. She had mirrors everywhere. A huge bed smack dabb in the middle and the wall had a painting of her face on it with her name in graffiti. She had a nice little soft looking sofa near the door. It was pink and sky blue. Her room was sos huge and colorful. It was paradise. I then noticed the people. I saw a girl with blonde weave,a heavy- set 20-somthing year old,a girl that had thick pink glasses and skinny jeans with a cute little puppy in her lap, a skinny dark skinned girl in a sundress similar to mine but she had hills on, and last a small little tiny 4 foot 11 girl standing near Maggie's bed arguing with the heavy-set 20 year old.''Mar-mar, no she didn't dude! I know her and she did not do something like that. And thats what's up!'' She rolled her eyes and plopped on the bed. The girl in the skinny jeans with the cute hot pink glasses and matching tee walked over to me. It seemed like she was the only girl who noticed me in the doorway.''Hi, my name is Pookie. I heard some stuff about you giiirrl. BUt anyway, have a seat. You can sit over there.'' She pointed to a lush hot pink chair. I walked over and sat down. Then all of a sudden a big tall skinny woman busted in the room and said,'' HUSH! Now that she is here, ya'll older girls better set some examples. Cut that foolishness out.'' She then turned to me. I had a look of fear in my eyes, i could tell. '' Hi sweetie, my name is Margaret. You may call me Marge. I'm Maggie's mother. Nice to finally meet you.'' I smiled, and she reached her hand out. I shook it and the door then busted open and Maggie pushed her mother out of the way.'' MOM!! SOME PEOPLE ARE OUTSIDE, THEY SAID THEY LOOKING FOR MONEE!! WHERE HE AT? HURRYYY!!!!'' She ran out the room and stomped down the stairs. I was kinda creeped out by all this dramatic stuff. First her room,then her family and mother and now this. What else? BOOM!!!! A gun went off. I sinked into my chair. This is supposed to be a nice neighborhood and a nice get together, not a gang meeting. It's nicer than my hood though. So im not complaining. Everybody left the room and stormed down the steps. I was the only one left so I walked to to the stair rail and peeked down. They were all standing in the living room and Maggie was outside in the street. She was yelling into the window of some car. I was definetly scared now. What is going on? I slowly walked down the stairs and sat on a sofa in the living room. I looked at the expression on everyones face. This is not good.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
continued. sorry 4 the links. they suckk
When i reached home, I cried. I cried until I couldn't anymore. My sister, Mara, came in the room. She sat on my little palet on the floor since I don't have a bed. She rubbed my hair and I sniffled. ''Why me?'' ''Why you? What do you mean?'' I rolled over on my back and faced her. I felt like i could trust her and she would'nt tell my secrets. ''Have you ever sucked a random man's thing before? Well, f.ck! I did it! I didn't want to I swear!!!'' I cried some more. She looked shocked and extremely disappointed. ''Why? Why would you do that!? Do you want to be like Marise? Huh? Are you trying to fail on purpose? Do you want to not be anything?'' I looked down and almost died. I was ashamed of my self. How could I be so stupid? But i didn't want to though.'' I did not enjoy it if that's what you think! He held me hostage. He asked me my name and pushed me in an alley behind that old building. Do i look like that type? All I wanted was to go home and freshen up because I was invited somewhere.'' ''Where? Who invited you someplace?'' she asked with a serious expression. '' This girl and her ''posse'' at school. They want to make me over so I can be one of them.'' She rolled her eyes and when she got up she said,'' I can't tell you anything. Go if you like, but they are only playing you. They want to use you for some reason I know. I've been there before. ME and all YOUR sisters. We know what its like. I only want to help. I swear......it seems like history repeats itself. And for your information, I have sucked a random man's ''thing'' before. And I didn't enjoy it either.'' My eyes shot open as she closed my door. What? has she been through all i've been through? I sighed and looked at my clock from my great-grandmother, it read 9:51 p.m. I shot up in my blankets and ran to my closet. What would i wear? HMMMM. it didn't matter. She would make me over now. I was ready for a change. I tracked all the way to her place by myself. JOKE! I wasn't aloud to leave the house alone now. I had to walk with TJ. He tried to make light conversation,'' So how was school?'' ''I-I don't want to talk about it. It's no big deal.'' My brother and sisters are the only friends I have. Ifeel i can tell them everything.'' what is it? Tell me...pleassseee.'' I sometimes forget my brother is a big as.s baby. He will not make me spill the beans this time. ''I can't. You'll be mad.'' ''Icould never be mad at you. You are perfect sissy, now you can trust me. We are supposed to be tight. Like a ghetto sistahs corn rows. Tell me whats on yo miiind.'' I laughed at his wittiness. It would be gone as soon as I told him what happened.'' Ok, but you promised you wouldn't get mad so remember that when you're yelling and screaming. TODAY, i wrote a letter about Trey and Maggie read it. And on the w-way........home, i got at-t-tacked by a drunk and...he mad me, suck his.....suck...his..,'' I started to cry mid sentence &nd he grabbed me and held me to his chest. I sobbed as we walked. He held my hand. My superhero he was.
so i'll write a story[fictional!)
ok so im writing a story and its drama filled. so enjoy. oh and u know i couldnt stay away not even for 5 days.
Have you ever felt like everyone was against you? Trying to hold you back. BUt you didn't know that they we're only trying to protect you?
What if you don't need protection? Huh? Cause i don't. I really and truly don't. i can handle myself. And i wish my siblings would understand that. I'm just trying to live my life. No one is going to hurt me. Damn! Anyway, i have 2 twin sisters and a brother and another sister. They are all grown and think that I'm just a baby. Why? I don't get it.
[[Samina]
[[Tae]]
[[Mara]]
[[TJ]
I hate them. LET ME TELL YOU WHAT THEY DID! That is the best part. I was walking home with my new bf and TJ pops out of no where in his stupid little sports car and says,'' Get in, you have a dentist appointment for that hot ass breath you breathing.'' He is 19 years old. Shouldn't he be doing something else. I knew i didn't have an appointment. He was checking me. So i looked at him as if i didn't know who he was. I kept walking and he kept on rolling slowly beside us. ''Is this dude bothering you ,babe?'' SCHREECH!! The car stopped. He got out and walked over to my boyfriend Daraun and I sighed. What now? I thought. He was all in Daruan's face talking about how he better step down cause I'm his little sister. And that he'll f.ck him up if he even heard that he did me wrong.
Do i look like a little baby? No i do not. So the moral of this story is. Don't let you big brother control you like I do. He'll ruin your life. I had to break up with him and now people think TJ is crazy and psycho and that he cut Daraun's arm. Daraun had that cut before i even met him. Rumors i tell you.
JULY 18TH - 2005.
I woke up today in my house. My room was a mess and it was only 7:00 am. i quickly jumped up and got dressed.
I ran down stars and grabbed a honey bun. ''Hello!!?'' I yelled to see if anyone of my siblings were home. No answer. You see, my siblings raise me because my mother and father are crackheads. Heaven knows where they are now. They just won't quit. I used to come home and quickly do my homework and run the streets looking for them. I found my mother once and she didn't recognize me. She thought i was a dealer. I cried my way home. I don't think anyone understands the way I feel.
On my way walking to Oak View High, I listened to my little Mp3 that my brother bought me for my 15th birthday a few years ago with his first paycheck. He works at Mcdonald's full time. My sister Mara is working a Hank's Laundry Mat. And my sister Tae works at the gas station up the street from where i live. My other sister Mina is unemployed, she has a bad drinking problem and can't keep a job. She smokes weed all day at her friend Terese's house. '' Move bitch.'' I looked up from my mp3. It was a tall dark and handsome guy, his name was Trey. I love me some Trey. ''I-I-I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it I swear. I'll move.'' ''You got some kind of stuttering problem? I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I loves Harpo, God knows I dooooo.'' All his friends cracked up. I turned away and went straight to my locker. I was in such a hurry because those kids were still laughing. My drawing book/ doodle book slipped and fell to the floor. I tried to bend to retrieve it, but Maggie reached it and snatched it. She was the school's popular girl so to speak. She ran the school, she and her little posse. I honestly couldn't stand her. ''HMMMM! WHAT DO WE HAVE HER, MISS JAYNE? SO YOU LIKE TO DRAW NA? YOU CAN'T DRAW NO BETTAH THAN MY LITTLE COUSIN POOKIE SHE WOULD WHOOP THE BRE-- WHAT IS THIS?'' she loved to talk so loud. Like she was so important. She had just flipped onto a page i doodled in study hall about Trey. I wrote:
''Dear Trey,My love,
We must soon be together
Forever and ever
To love eachother
Hug eachtother
Live our lives in Harmony
[ that would be our daughter's name]
Or live in peace in happiness because
If i can't have you
No one can....
JOKE''
i was mad as hell. Why did she just read my journal to everyone? A tear formed in my eye. It was just a little poem/joke. Who would take it serious, but her, on the count of she is his girlfriend. That was a big mistake. I shouldn't have let her read it. But what could I do? She would probably kill me for it. Since it did have her boyfriend's name in there. When i snapped out of it, everyone was staring at me. I blinked back my tears and grabbed my book. She shook her head and said,''MMMMHH, WHAT A BIG SHAME. YOU ARE TRYING TO PLOT TO KILL ME AND MY MAN. HOW PATHETIC EVERYONE! SHE WANTS TREY-BOO. WELL GUESS WHAT DEAR?'' I looked up and wiped the tear from my little lonely eyes. '' What?'' She flipped her long weave and said,'' HE DON'T WANT YOU! AND IF I EVER CATCH YOU TALKING ABOUT MY MAN, LOOKING AT MY MAN, EVEN THINKING ABOUT MY MAN YOU ARE SO GONE FROM OAK VIEW HIGH!!! SO GO ON AND PACK YOUR BAGS, CAUSE THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE! AIN'T EVEN CLOSE TO OVER BOO-BOO. PEACE! POSSE OUT!'' She snapped her long nailed finger and marched away with LeLe, Bobby, and Marsha in tow.
Throughout the whole entire day, people gave me rude looks and poked their noses in the air. I looked down as usual. Why do people always want to get the wrong idea about me? Am i really a mean person? I always thought i treated people nicely. I guess i'll have to be even nicer to Marsha,LeLe,Bobby, and Maggie. So when I was at my locker getting my HEAVY backpack ready to go home. I got a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and it was none other than Maggie. '' I'm sorry about this morning. I just wanted to scare you. Everybody has been after Trey, i just get so possessive, it's not your fault. How about you come hang around the cool kids now. And if you are gonna be one of us. You've got to look like one of us. SO stop by my house tonight around 10 when everyone is sleep. OK?'' I honestly can say this is the nicest i've ever seen her. She wasn't even that loud or anything. Wow! I just can't believe it. I was speechless so I nodded gently. She patted my boney shoulder and walked away. On my way home, I was still shocked. But I had to leave my shockness behind when I turned into my neighborhood. The roughest and toughest of them all. I lived on Sheralk Lane. There are pitbulls being forced to fight, crackheads roming around, bad asses shooting dice, gang bangers standing around with their pistols in their pants. Ladies selling themselves on the corner, and little kids playing. I was walking and a dumb guy grabbed my backpack and spinned me around. I was afraid, I can tell you that for sure. These guys around here aren't scared of nobody. They'll rape you in front of all these people in the middle of the street. ''What's yo name gul?'' My eyes darted across his face, not wanting to strike him as the hard type. I looked at my shoes and- ''Answer me fo I have to do somethin'! Bitch open yo mouth!!'' I winced at the B word and said,'' Uhhh, Katie. Katie Holmes.'' He wouldn't know that that was an actress. ''Well....KATIE HOLMES, you got a thick a.ss behind on you. You look too right might I add. I bet you been eating them collard greens ya mami made ya. Huhh? Follow me behind this building before I hurt you aiight!!??'' I did as i was told, not thinking about the concequences. He then pushed me on the ground. We were behind a old tarring building. I was huddled up near a garbage heap. He was standing there admiring me.'' Get on you knees.'' I did so, not knowing what to expect when he pulled out his dic.k. I was 3 seconds from tears. '' You know the drill.'' Indid i did. But i still didn't want to do it. He slapped my purse out of my hand as I was reaching to see if I had my cell. I cried out, and tried to scream but her punched me. He then pinned me down and started shoving his penis in my face. I turned my head but he told me to open up. I said, ''NO!!!'' He kicked me and then i heard a click. I looked up and saw a gun. I froze. He pointed it at my nose and said,'' Suck....'' I did but I didn't like it one bit. I cried the entire time. It was a sad day for me.
Have you ever felt like everyone was against you? Trying to hold you back. BUt you didn't know that they we're only trying to protect you?
What if you don't need protection? Huh? Cause i don't. I really and truly don't. i can handle myself. And i wish my siblings would understand that. I'm just trying to live my life. No one is going to hurt me. Damn! Anyway, i have 2 twin sisters and a brother and another sister. They are all grown and think that I'm just a baby. Why? I don't get it.
[[Samina]
[[Tae]]
[[Mara]]
[[TJ]
I hate them. LET ME TELL YOU WHAT THEY DID! That is the best part. I was walking home with my new bf and TJ pops out of no where in his stupid little sports car and says,'' Get in, you have a dentist appointment for that hot ass breath you breathing.'' He is 19 years old. Shouldn't he be doing something else. I knew i didn't have an appointment. He was checking me. So i looked at him as if i didn't know who he was. I kept walking and he kept on rolling slowly beside us. ''Is this dude bothering you ,babe?'' SCHREECH!! The car stopped. He got out and walked over to my boyfriend Daraun and I sighed. What now? I thought. He was all in Daruan's face talking about how he better step down cause I'm his little sister. And that he'll f.ck him up if he even heard that he did me wrong.
Do i look like a little baby? No i do not. So the moral of this story is. Don't let you big brother control you like I do. He'll ruin your life. I had to break up with him and now people think TJ is crazy and psycho and that he cut Daraun's arm. Daraun had that cut before i even met him. Rumors i tell you.
JULY 18TH - 2005.
I woke up today in my house. My room was a mess and it was only 7:00 am. i quickly jumped up and got dressed.
I ran down stars and grabbed a honey bun. ''Hello!!?'' I yelled to see if anyone of my siblings were home. No answer. You see, my siblings raise me because my mother and father are crackheads. Heaven knows where they are now. They just won't quit. I used to come home and quickly do my homework and run the streets looking for them. I found my mother once and she didn't recognize me. She thought i was a dealer. I cried my way home. I don't think anyone understands the way I feel.
On my way walking to Oak View High, I listened to my little Mp3 that my brother bought me for my 15th birthday a few years ago with his first paycheck. He works at Mcdonald's full time. My sister Mara is working a Hank's Laundry Mat. And my sister Tae works at the gas station up the street from where i live. My other sister Mina is unemployed, she has a bad drinking problem and can't keep a job. She smokes weed all day at her friend Terese's house. '' Move bitch.'' I looked up from my mp3. It was a tall dark and handsome guy, his name was Trey. I love me some Trey. ''I-I-I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it I swear. I'll move.'' ''You got some kind of stuttering problem? I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I loves Harpo, God knows I dooooo.'' All his friends cracked up. I turned away and went straight to my locker. I was in such a hurry because those kids were still laughing. My drawing book/ doodle book slipped and fell to the floor. I tried to bend to retrieve it, but Maggie reached it and snatched it. She was the school's popular girl so to speak. She ran the school, she and her little posse. I honestly couldn't stand her. ''HMMMM! WHAT DO WE HAVE HER, MISS JAYNE? SO YOU LIKE TO DRAW NA? YOU CAN'T DRAW NO BETTAH THAN MY LITTLE COUSIN POOKIE SHE WOULD WHOOP THE BRE-- WHAT IS THIS?'' she loved to talk so loud. Like she was so important. She had just flipped onto a page i doodled in study hall about Trey. I wrote:
''Dear Trey,My love,
We must soon be together
Forever and ever
To love eachother
Hug eachtother
Live our lives in Harmony
[ that would be our daughter's name]
Or live in peace in happiness because
If i can't have you
No one can....
JOKE''
i was mad as hell. Why did she just read my journal to everyone? A tear formed in my eye. It was just a little poem/joke. Who would take it serious, but her, on the count of she is his girlfriend. That was a big mistake. I shouldn't have let her read it. But what could I do? She would probably kill me for it. Since it did have her boyfriend's name in there. When i snapped out of it, everyone was staring at me. I blinked back my tears and grabbed my book. She shook her head and said,''MMMMHH, WHAT A BIG SHAME. YOU ARE TRYING TO PLOT TO KILL ME AND MY MAN. HOW PATHETIC EVERYONE! SHE WANTS TREY-BOO. WELL GUESS WHAT DEAR?'' I looked up and wiped the tear from my little lonely eyes. '' What?'' She flipped her long weave and said,'' HE DON'T WANT YOU! AND IF I EVER CATCH YOU TALKING ABOUT MY MAN, LOOKING AT MY MAN, EVEN THINKING ABOUT MY MAN YOU ARE SO GONE FROM OAK VIEW HIGH!!! SO GO ON AND PACK YOUR BAGS, CAUSE THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE! AIN'T EVEN CLOSE TO OVER BOO-BOO. PEACE! POSSE OUT!'' She snapped her long nailed finger and marched away with LeLe, Bobby, and Marsha in tow.
Throughout the whole entire day, people gave me rude looks and poked their noses in the air. I looked down as usual. Why do people always want to get the wrong idea about me? Am i really a mean person? I always thought i treated people nicely. I guess i'll have to be even nicer to Marsha,LeLe,Bobby, and Maggie. So when I was at my locker getting my HEAVY backpack ready to go home. I got a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and it was none other than Maggie. '' I'm sorry about this morning. I just wanted to scare you. Everybody has been after Trey, i just get so possessive, it's not your fault. How about you come hang around the cool kids now. And if you are gonna be one of us. You've got to look like one of us. SO stop by my house tonight around 10 when everyone is sleep. OK?'' I honestly can say this is the nicest i've ever seen her. She wasn't even that loud or anything. Wow! I just can't believe it. I was speechless so I nodded gently. She patted my boney shoulder and walked away. On my way home, I was still shocked. But I had to leave my shockness behind when I turned into my neighborhood. The roughest and toughest of them all. I lived on Sheralk Lane. There are pitbulls being forced to fight, crackheads roming around, bad asses shooting dice, gang bangers standing around with their pistols in their pants. Ladies selling themselves on the corner, and little kids playing. I was walking and a dumb guy grabbed my backpack and spinned me around. I was afraid, I can tell you that for sure. These guys around here aren't scared of nobody. They'll rape you in front of all these people in the middle of the street. ''What's yo name gul?'' My eyes darted across his face, not wanting to strike him as the hard type. I looked at my shoes and- ''Answer me fo I have to do somethin'! Bitch open yo mouth!!'' I winced at the B word and said,'' Uhhh, Katie. Katie Holmes.'' He wouldn't know that that was an actress. ''Well....KATIE HOLMES, you got a thick a.ss behind on you. You look too right might I add. I bet you been eating them collard greens ya mami made ya. Huhh? Follow me behind this building before I hurt you aiight!!??'' I did as i was told, not thinking about the concequences. He then pushed me on the ground. We were behind a old tarring building. I was huddled up near a garbage heap. He was standing there admiring me.'' Get on you knees.'' I did so, not knowing what to expect when he pulled out his dic.k. I was 3 seconds from tears. '' You know the drill.'' Indid i did. But i still didn't want to do it. He slapped my purse out of my hand as I was reaching to see if I had my cell. I cried out, and tried to scream but her punched me. He then pinned me down and started shoving his penis in my face. I turned my head but he told me to open up. I said, ''NO!!!'' He kicked me and then i heard a click. I looked up and saw a gun. I froze. He pointed it at my nose and said,'' Suck....'' I did but I didn't like it one bit. I cried the entire time. It was a sad day for me.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
WAHTEVAA
oh and about me staying off until december.
IT OFFICIALLY STARTS NOW.
I WAS JUST SOOO BORED.
I HAD TO BLOG ABOUTIT.
IT WAS THE ONLY THING TO DO/
SO I DID IT.
NOW BYEE.
[KISSES)
XOXO
IT OFFICIALLY STARTS NOW.
I WAS JUST SOOO BORED.
I HAD TO BLOG ABOUTIT.
IT WAS THE ONLY THING TO DO/
SO I DID IT.
NOW BYEE.
[KISSES)
XOXO
incredible pizza...
i wanted to go but none of my friends are sure they can go. i really wanna go too.
and im soooo hungry too. uggghhhhhhhhhhh!!
and im soooo hungry too. uggghhhhhhhhhhh!!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
but......
''if knowledge is the key then show me the lock.''
anyway today was quite......BORING.
nothing was accomplished.
i had spaghetti
that was good but messy because i loooovvve past.a
i swear i'm italian [lol]
anyway. itook so many photo's today.
they look cute.
i know i look so rite in dhem.
i wish i had an f--king bed to sleep in. gosh
im sleeping in a room widh my moms.
dhat sucks.
well..............................this post has no purpose.
it was just to waste ur time.
goo'day
wait!!
this is my last post for this month.
i'll do a recap of waht happened on December 1st.
ANYWAY.
bye..[kissesszz] xoxox
anyway today was quite......BORING.
nothing was accomplished.
i had spaghetti
that was good but messy because i loooovvve past.a
i swear i'm italian [lol]
anyway. itook so many photo's today.
they look cute.
i know i look so rite in dhem.
i wish i had an f--king bed to sleep in. gosh
im sleeping in a room widh my moms.
dhat sucks.
well..............................this post has no purpose.
it was just to waste ur time.
goo'day
wait!!
this is my last post for this month.
i'll do a recap of waht happened on December 1st.
ANYWAY.
bye..[kissesszz] xoxox
Thursday, November 6, 2008
i'm supposed to b in the sack...
ok so im supposed to be sleep now, but i need to get some more stuff off my chest and here is the best place to do it...
i feel like my friend Josh* has been getting on my nerves, he always thinks he's better than somebody. he's gay! he could never be better than anybody. not because of the fact that he is gay but because he has flaws. and i know most of em. i could point everyone of them out. but im not that type. so i won't. lucky for him. last year he revealed too much information to me. and now he has a new friend. her name is zana*. she thinks she is just the flyest thang. but i love her anyway. shes my friend as well. but she annoys me too. she has her ways. i think all my friends secretly annoy me. well most of them. but josh annoys me to the point where i want to stab him sometimes. he lies and cracks the nastiest jokes. who does he think he is. i told him i'll on send him rude remarks if he does the same to me. do unto others as you would have them do unto you. so in other words. dont mess with me and i wont mess with you or dont start nothing or its gonna be something. i've learned that you can't go a week without some drama at my school. it is just the way it is. my school will never change. i wish i could make a change. like barack obama. i'd be the female version. we can make a change at my school i hope. i know i said we will never change but we will. we have to. or things will just get worse and worse until it all ends. and i hate to say it but its the reality of it all..BYE
i feel like my friend Josh* has been getting on my nerves, he always thinks he's better than somebody. he's gay! he could never be better than anybody. not because of the fact that he is gay but because he has flaws. and i know most of em. i could point everyone of them out. but im not that type. so i won't. lucky for him. last year he revealed too much information to me. and now he has a new friend. her name is zana*. she thinks she is just the flyest thang. but i love her anyway. shes my friend as well. but she annoys me too. she has her ways. i think all my friends secretly annoy me. well most of them. but josh annoys me to the point where i want to stab him sometimes. he lies and cracks the nastiest jokes. who does he think he is. i told him i'll on send him rude remarks if he does the same to me. do unto others as you would have them do unto you. so in other words. dont mess with me and i wont mess with you or dont start nothing or its gonna be something. i've learned that you can't go a week without some drama at my school. it is just the way it is. my school will never change. i wish i could make a change. like barack obama. i'd be the female version. we can make a change at my school i hope. i know i said we will never change but we will. we have to. or things will just get worse and worse until it all ends. and i hate to say it but its the reality of it all..BYE
haven't been on in forever......
i'm pissed. we had a game today and everybody was having fun. i found out that i need to start lifting weights or something because i'm weak. john was there,so was zeligha,kiana,tiera,gerry,lorenzo,everybody. but then after the game. we were headed to the parking lot and my friend, i saw her and went up to her and she said she was mad at me. i said why. she said she had to tell me something. i said ok. what? and she said she would tell me later and then i said ok. i started playing with her like i usually do and she said don't talk to her anymore. isaid why. she said she was serious and now im confused. we were cool earlier and now she hates me? what? when me and my brother was walking away. she said she got me tommorow. i was like what? what do she mean? i hope she not bout to try to fight me. me and her were real cool and now she want to fight me? i'm not about to fight her. she can talk about me or whatever. whatever she heard that she won't tell me is whatever. she not telling me so i can't help her. and if she believed it. ican't help her/
Thursday, September 11, 2008
So school started..
it sucks. drama has alreadi found its way into my school. today my school was on the news because two of our buses crashed into each other
which is stupid. so we found ourselves on the news. anyway, chassiti is killing me. she is destroying everything. she is the most dumbest and foolish child i've ever met. i really wish ppl like this could get their life license revoked. she thinks she is all that. un-inviting me to her party and acting like we cool. then she is making up stuff about me.
which is stupid. so we found ourselves on the news. anyway, chassiti is killing me. she is destroying everything. she is the most dumbest and foolish child i've ever met. i really wish ppl like this could get their life license revoked. she thinks she is all that. un-inviting me to her party and acting like we cool. then she is making up stuff about me.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
i feel like leaving home
i want to go live with my dad but i dont want to go to the school over there. My mother likes getting under my skin and i hate it when she does that. She pushes my buttons. she likes to yell and scream and talk constantly. i dont like it when she does that, in fact i feel like hitting her when she does stuff like that. but if i do then she will call the cops on me as she has already said before numerous times. i wonder how life would be if i grew up with my dad. he is an okay guy. we share the same characteristic[most of them]. i belive if any one were to ask my neighbors how they think my relationship with my mother is going. i think they would say horrible. they would say that i scream all the time. she screams all the time. there is booms! and Bangs! bad words being screamed at the top of our lungs. horrible language used to hurt my feelings. which it doesnt really. i think my mother just needs t o grow up. she does stuff i would do when i was 11. like locking me out of the house. talking bad about me...like im a girl in her class or something. worshipping some dude who cheated on her with some bright light suga baby who had his child. and she never knew until later on and thats basically how everything started going downhill from then. i was filled with anger. so was she. we were living in a hotel...a hotel. our car got broken into. my socalled bf dumped me and then after he started dating this new girl she wanted to fight me because he still liked me and wanted to date me. it was clearly not my fault that i was attractive to him still.i never faught her or whatever and she ran and told everybody like that was something to be proud of. i wasnt going to fight her and i still am not going to..because it was over a boy and i never devote any of my time to a stupid little boy. i just wanted to move on. but everything kept getting worse. worse. my grandmother passed away and that just had me left devastated. i was getting in trouble at school. i broke my cellphone. glasses. and fan in my room. i was just bubbled up with anger and it ate me up inside. i just wanted to die at that point. sometimes still today. but i keep my life with me because i know i just cant do it. i would never take my OWN life. not even for my own mother. im just to scared. i want to live my life. i want to finish living. and whenever im feeling like i do right now. i listen to Michael jackson. he makes everything better for me. listening to his words and voice is just so heavenly. i like what he has to say. hes a some what role model for me because all the things he does. and that he doesnt let what people say get to him. my friend chante* just called. she was talking to me because she was bored, as i am. i asked her if she went somewhere would she please take me with her because i am absolutely bored. she is a cool person to hang out with. loud but cool. before she called my dad called. i asked if i could spend the night over his house this week. he said yeah for a few days. i wish i could stay for more like a year. but he works like a lot. and it gets boring without nothing to do. its crazy. icould watch a few good movies but nothing more. going outside to talk to strange teenagers would be a bit much and i would be risking the chance of getting hit on. like that time i got hit on by some guy that works at walmart near the eggs. he seemed crazy. weirdo....
i hope while im over my dads house i do get the chance to meet someone new. but i dont like meeting people really because thats a risk. i dont know them but if i got to know them and they are just soo not my style or rude i will have to bump them. and thats a waste of my time. gosh well gotta go. bye
i hope while im over my dads house i do get the chance to meet someone new. but i dont like meeting people really because thats a risk. i dont know them but if i got to know them and they are just soo not my style or rude i will have to bump them. and thats a waste of my time. gosh well gotta go. bye
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Wow!
Today the ups dude-waht i call him- brought some stuff my mom ordered. Today we got some little ketchup holder and some weird little signs to hang in the bathroom. They say,''my aim is to keep this bathroom clean, your aim will help.'' [eww] ''changing the toilet paper roll will not cause any brain damage.'' [this one was funny] ''if you sprinkle when you tinkle, be a sweetie and wipe the seatie.'' [lol]
I hope no one see's these and actually thinks that they are funny especially cute. ugh
I hope no one see's these and actually thinks that they are funny especially cute. ugh
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Room Make-Over
I want to make over my room and do something totally different. I want have tons of posters of the greatest celebrities on my wall[including me cause that day will come]. People like, Michael Jackson[ already have it],Marilyn Monroe,Janet Jackson,Will Smith,Diana Ross, My mom and dad[they're superstars to me],The Jackson 5,Jada Pinkett-Smith,Tina Turner,Tyra Banks,Laila Ali, Muhummad Ali, other stuff.
Changes, Things will never be the same.
I'm anxious for school to start. I need school to start. I just want to learn all this stuff over again, get bored in class, get detention [not] and have fun. I want to go to basketball games and eat hot dogs, I want to sell stuff to my classmates to get a little cash for some stuff. I want to join the year book club and design the cover, I want my yearbook picture to come out straight this time. I want people to actually be nice this year and I'll do the same [regardless]. This year, whatever people say, I'll always turn away from a fight. This school year will be different from the last. I will not give in and let my anger get the best of me. And OMG these crickets are killing me, man. I will not smart talk my teachers. I will dress fly and look fabulous as usual. I will persuade people to treat the world better and become better people. Because this day and time, we deserve better people in this world. We need to make a change. And the way to do that is to start at home. I am going to change and my family will change.
Money
People say money makes the world go round. I don't believe that it should be that way. I wish money didn't exist and we had to trade everything we owned for something...then we'd be giving and receiving at the same time. Maybe I'm crazy, but that's what I wish. Right now, my mom is running low on money, I guess. My refrigerator is empty except for some cheese, Mexican cheese, and just more cheese basically....LoL. I wish I could get a another job. The one I had is gone. I was making a little bit of cheese[ha] so I was happy and satisfied.
Peace
It's 2:oo in the morning. I'm watching a Different World. They are showing the very first season,1987.My brother is being annoying and he loud, very rude. If he wakes up my mother, we are toast. She has to get up at 6:oo in the morning every day. These crickets out side are pushing me last nerves. ANYWAY I had some things on my mind so I figured I'd get em out. That's what this blog is for so...yeah.ok
Ok so I'm sitting here thinking about what I want to happen in my life, right now. And here it is, I want to be in a jungle, with my closest and dearest friends, living....with the wild. Away from all of these material objects and stuck-up people. Just living life. Having fun. Yeah so that's about it. I can't think of anything else. Peace
love
Ok so I'm sitting here thinking about what I want to happen in my life, right now. And here it is, I want to be in a jungle, with my closest and dearest friends, living....with the wild. Away from all of these material objects and stuck-up people. Just living life. Having fun. Yeah so that's about it. I can't think of anything else. Peace
love
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
i'M HUNGRY!!
i Could go for some Pizza Hut Pasta right about now. That stuff is soooo good, man. I could sit and eat a whole pan of that stuff. But there is one problem. That stuff costs a lot!
Criss Angel
I was just watching that and I'm wondering, how does he do this stuff? Either he's really good at tricking people or he is really.......strange. Because I don't really believe that people can lift themselves off the ground like that. But if he can then that's weird. Oh and I forgot to mention, I think he is cute. Lol he is, to me anyway.
Sunday, July 13, 2008
I feel like watching a Movie
I wanna see Forest Gump. That is a good,long,interesting movie that I'd love to see right now. Tom Hanks was great in that movie. I'm gonna go buy it on dvd because my video collection is kind of small right now. I only have about three movies[ She's The Man, Lady Sings The Blues, Poetic Justice] Everything else is boot-leg so to me that doesn't count.
Basketball.....[??]
I was thinking about trying out again for the basketball team. I don't know if I should because last year there was a whole bunch of issues I had to deal with. It was all bad. I think I might be good. But the coach is gonna have to cut me some slack until I see what I can do about my voice. There won't be any yelling on the court for me. Like they do it anyway....it doesn't really matter.
Theme Songs
Martin
The Hughley's
A Different World Season 6
Good Times
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air
The Wire
Pokemon
The Hughley's
A Different World Season 6
Good Times
The Fresh Prince Of Bel-Air
The Wire
Pokemon
Diddy & Cassie Dating?
All I have to say is...eww Gosh!
WHAT is he thinking? Not that Cassie is ugly or anything cause she's not, but her age ,mannn!
She is what? twenty-one....and Diddy is 38. ME personally, I think he is too old for her. I Wonder how old was Kim?
Young Buck- OD
The News about David Darnell Brown aka Young Buck over dosing on prescription drugs is crazy. They say it was suicide attempt, but who knows. If it was...he has a reason for doing it. He just needs to talk to somebody, that's all.
This is the police report:
“ON 07/08/08 AT APPROXIMATELY 7:45 PM, NV/S WERE DISPATCHED ON A CALL BY NAHSVILLE FIRE AND RESCUE REGARDING COMP ATTEMPTING SUICIDE BY PRESCRIPTION PAIN MEDICATION. UPON ARRIVAL NV/S FOUND COMP BEING STABILIZED BY DFD #705 IN THE AMBULANCE. NV/S THEN RESPONDED TO METRO NASHVILLE HOSPITAL PER DFD'S REQUEST FOR IMMEDIATE TRANSPORT AND TREATMENT. RP #1 WAS INTERVIEWED BY NV/S AT METRO NASHVILLE HOSPITAL. RP STATED THAT COMP STATED THAT HE WAS DEPRESSED. RP NOTICED THAT COMP'S PRESCRIPTION PAIN MEDICATION WAS EMPTY AND OBSERVED COMP PUTTING 2 PILLS IN HIS MOUTH. RP ATTEMPTED TO PUT HER FINGERS IN COMP'S MOUTH TO RETRIEVE THE PILLS. NV/S WERE TOLD BY RP THAT THE PRESCRIPTION OF 40 PILLS THAT WAS FILLED ON THE 29TH OF JUNE, AND THAT COMP HAD ONLY TAKEN 5 PILLS UP TO THIS DATE. DURING AN INTERVIEW OF THE COMP, COMP WAS ASKED IF HE HAD TAKEN THE REMAINDER OF THE PRESCRIPTION, AT WHICH TIME THE COMP STATED, "YES". ON FURTHER INTERVIEW OF COMP, COMP WAS ASKED IF HE WAS ATTEMPTING TO HARM HIMSELF, AT WHICH TIME THE COMP STATED, "YES". COMP WAS TREATED BY METRO NASHVILLE MEDICAL STAFF FOR A DRUG OVER DOSE. SGT. NVTOS #5374 AND DUTY COMMANDER WARD WERE NOTIFIED. .NFI. “
Terrence & Rocsi Fighting?
This Friday on 106 & Park. Hosts Terrence and Rocsi were throwing 'pretty' mean jabs at eachother. It got so bad to the point where Host Rocsi walked off the set... mmmm?? I think those two need to make up quick because they have a job to do, I don't know if they are having relationship problems [if they are even dating], but they need to reconcile or something. I hope they don't get fired, because they make the show funny and almost better than Free & A.J.
Here's The Video
Saturday, July 12, 2008
The Real World
GREG.
Greg was somewhat cool. I don't understand why he got kicked off because he refused to do the jobs. He was there to promote himself as a professional male model, not do a job. His only job was to make himself known. Well now he kinda is known... I just don't know why my brother thought the fights and stuff he brought into the house was soo cool. It wasn't but I knew the show was gonna bring major drama. That's why people watch it in the first place. I know that's why I do.
BRIANNA!
Brianna is my home girl. She was the coolest and chillest out of everyone in the house. I love her song 'Summertime'. It sounds good. She has more singles out now. And I love her new hair-do[she got rid of those braids]. I wonder what her heritage is? My brother thinks she's Caucasian. I think she's either bi-racial or just light skin.
DAVE!
Dave is the wild one. He partied a lot. At least that's what they made him out to be. Because on the shows, they never really show the real deal. But Dave's cool with me. He stood up for his so-called Amigo on the reunion show this week after Will's ex -girlfriend Janelle went off about Will being a cheat. Go Boy!
JOEY!
Joey was the cute one to me. He is so cute. I know he had his problems, but who doesn't. He's clean now and all it took was a little push from the people who cared. I'm extremely happy for him. He is doing good. I still think him and Brianna should've hooked up.
WILL!
Will to most people is looked upon as I guess a whore. Because he did kiss a lot of people and was having a lot of fun BUT that's what young people do. He's grown. And it was the Real World! What do you expect? A nice little quiet mouse who sits in the corner and reads books[ books are nice, but if I'm on the real world,I'm partying]. He Was wrong for cheating and all but they were only dating for a little while and it was kinda a bad time.
SARA!
Sara was, I guess, the good little Christian girl. Now, Nothings wrong with that, but she was acting a little too perfect. That's why when she got wasted, I was so happy. I was laughing so hard. She proved that even the good people mess up sometimes.
KIM!
Kim was a nice person. I did kind of looked at her differently after the episode of her arguing with Bri. That was kind of funny until she said, ''Don't get ghetto'', And something about blackville. I was like, ''Is she rascist?'' But after that she was calm for the rest of the show.
NICK!
Nick is hot. He is fine.....Gosh. I thought he and Brittini would hook-up, I swear I did. BUT unfortunately. They didn't even like talk to eachother that much. At least that's what they showed, or made it seem like. I hope he becomes a host like he wanted.
BRITTINI!
I knew Brittini would become good friends with Brianna. I don't have much to say about Brittini, but she is cool. The kiss with WILl was umm....I don't know. She was just having fun. I 'think' her and her boyfriend are still together or unless she never mentioned it to him. Anyway, She would make a great model. and thats it i guess...
Greg was somewhat cool. I don't understand why he got kicked off because he refused to do the jobs. He was there to promote himself as a professional male model, not do a job. His only job was to make himself known. Well now he kinda is known... I just don't know why my brother thought the fights and stuff he brought into the house was soo cool. It wasn't but I knew the show was gonna bring major drama. That's why people watch it in the first place. I know that's why I do.
BRIANNA!
Brianna is my home girl. She was the coolest and chillest out of everyone in the house. I love her song 'Summertime'. It sounds good. She has more singles out now. And I love her new hair-do[she got rid of those braids]. I wonder what her heritage is? My brother thinks she's Caucasian. I think she's either bi-racial or just light skin.
DAVE!
Dave is the wild one. He partied a lot. At least that's what they made him out to be. Because on the shows, they never really show the real deal. But Dave's cool with me. He stood up for his so-called Amigo on the reunion show this week after Will's ex -girlfriend Janelle went off about Will being a cheat. Go Boy!
JOEY!
Joey was the cute one to me. He is so cute. I know he had his problems, but who doesn't. He's clean now and all it took was a little push from the people who cared. I'm extremely happy for him. He is doing good. I still think him and Brianna should've hooked up.
WILL!
Will to most people is looked upon as I guess a whore. Because he did kiss a lot of people and was having a lot of fun BUT that's what young people do. He's grown. And it was the Real World! What do you expect? A nice little quiet mouse who sits in the corner and reads books[ books are nice, but if I'm on the real world,I'm partying]. He Was wrong for cheating and all but they were only dating for a little while and it was kinda a bad time.
SARA!
Sara was, I guess, the good little Christian girl. Now, Nothings wrong with that, but she was acting a little too perfect. That's why when she got wasted, I was so happy. I was laughing so hard. She proved that even the good people mess up sometimes.
KIM!
Kim was a nice person. I did kind of looked at her differently after the episode of her arguing with Bri. That was kind of funny until she said, ''Don't get ghetto'', And something about blackville. I was like, ''Is she rascist?'' But after that she was calm for the rest of the show.
NICK!
Nick is hot. He is fine.....Gosh. I thought he and Brittini would hook-up, I swear I did. BUT unfortunately. They didn't even like talk to eachother that much. At least that's what they showed, or made it seem like. I hope he becomes a host like he wanted.
BRITTINI!
I knew Brittini would become good friends with Brianna. I don't have much to say about Brittini, but she is cool. The kiss with WILl was umm....I don't know. She was just having fun. I 'think' her and her boyfriend are still together or unless she never mentioned it to him. Anyway, She would make a great model. and thats it i guess...
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Things Most People Don't Know About Me
o1. I've Been to Jail.
- A mistake. I'm Not a criminal..i had a bad fight. And now my mother holds that over my head.
o2. I'm afraid of dogs...big dogs. Puppies sometimes.
- But I want one. LoL
o3. I love to draw...I'm kind of good at it.
- My Mom wants me to go to an art academy or whatever.
o4. I think I can sing. If I can't, lol oh well.
- That's not my dream though. But if it happens, it happens.
o5. I want to be an actress.
- I'm good at fooling people. Very believable,too.
o6. I'm Obsessed with the 80's.
- I love everything about the 80's. Prince is the bomb, Michael ,too.
- A mistake. I'm Not a criminal..i had a bad fight. And now my mother holds that over my head.
o2. I'm afraid of dogs...big dogs. Puppies sometimes.
- But I want one. LoL
o3. I love to draw...I'm kind of good at it.
- My Mom wants me to go to an art academy or whatever.
o4. I think I can sing. If I can't, lol oh well.
- That's not my dream though. But if it happens, it happens.
o5. I want to be an actress.
- I'm good at fooling people. Very believable,too.
o6. I'm Obsessed with the 80's.
- I love everything about the 80's. Prince is the bomb, Michael ,too.
Me.Mee.Me.e.e.e.
oOkay. Today is sooo boring for me. I woke up at 1:15 pm because i HAD to watch 'A Different World' last night. [it comes on at 2:00 in the morning..believe that]...i love that show. i don't really believe that college is exactly like that..but i sure hope it was. Cause i would sure be looking forward to it.. Anyways.. right now i'm going to make a post of qoutes from my all time favorite songs.[because music is my LIFE]..check this out..
''Now I see the importance of history
Why people be in the mess that they be
Many journeys to freedom made in vain
By brothers on the corner playin ghetto games
I ask you lord why you enlightened me
Without the enlightment of all my folks
He said cuz I set myself on a quest for truth
And he was there to quench my thirst
But I am still thirsty...'' -Arrested Development, Tennessee
''Lord I've really been real stressed
Down and out, losin ground
Although I am black and proud
Problems got me pessimistic
Brothers and sisters keep messin up
Why does it have to be so damn tuff?''-Arrested Development, Tennessee
''A man decides after seventy years,
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door.
While those around him criticize and sleep...
And through a fractal on a breaking wall,
I see you my friend, and touch your face again.
Miracles will happen as we trip.
But we're never gonna survive, unless...
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive, unless...
We are a little... ''- Seal, Crazy
''The thrill for the money
You're saluting the flag
Your country trusts you
Now you're wearing a badge
You're called the "Just Few"
And you're fighting the wars
A soldier must do
I'll never betray or deceive you my friend but...
If you show me the cash
Then I will take it ''- Michael Jackson, Money
''Now I see the importance of history
Why people be in the mess that they be
Many journeys to freedom made in vain
By brothers on the corner playin ghetto games
I ask you lord why you enlightened me
Without the enlightment of all my folks
He said cuz I set myself on a quest for truth
And he was there to quench my thirst
But I am still thirsty...'' -Arrested Development, Tennessee
''Lord I've really been real stressed
Down and out, losin ground
Although I am black and proud
Problems got me pessimistic
Brothers and sisters keep messin up
Why does it have to be so damn tuff?''-Arrested Development, Tennessee
''A man decides after seventy years,
That what he goes there for, is to unlock the door.
While those around him criticize and sleep...
And through a fractal on a breaking wall,
I see you my friend, and touch your face again.
Miracles will happen as we trip.
But we're never gonna survive, unless...
We get a little crazy
No we're never gonna survive, unless...
We are a little... ''- Seal, Crazy
''The thrill for the money
You're saluting the flag
Your country trusts you
Now you're wearing a badge
You're called the "Just Few"
And you're fighting the wars
A soldier must do
I'll never betray or deceive you my friend but...
If you show me the cash
Then I will take it ''- Michael Jackson, Money
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
PrinceEarth Song- Michael Jackson [so true]
What about sunrise
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shared before
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth this weeping shores?
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
What have we done to the world
Look what we've done
What about all the peace
That you pledge your only son
What about flowering fields
Is there a time
What about all the dreams
That you said was yours and mine
Did you ever stop to notice
All the children dead from war
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth this weeping shores
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
I used to dream
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Hey, what about yesterday
(What about us)
What about the seas
(What about us)
The heavens are falling down
(What about us)
I can't even breathe
(What about us)
What about everthing
(What about us)
I have given you
(What about us)
What about nature's worth
(Ooo, ooo)
It's our planet's womb
(What about us)
What about animals
(What about it)
We've turned kingdoms to dust
(What about us)
What about elephants
(What about us)
Have we lost their trust
(What about us)
What about crying whales
(What about us)
We're ravaging the seas
(What about us)
What about forest trails
(Ooo, ooo)
Burnt despite our pleas
(What about us)
What about the holy land
(What about it)
Torn apart by creed
(What about us)
What about the common man
(What about us)
Can't we set him free
(What about us)
What about children dying
(What about us)
Can't you hear them cry
(What about us)
Where did we go wrong
(Ooo, ooo)
Someone tell me why
(What about us)
What about baby boy
(What about it)
What about the days
(What about us)
What about all their joy
(What about us)
What about the men
(What about us)
What about the crying man
(What about us)
What about Abraham
(What was us)
What about death again
(Ooo, ooo)
Do we give a damn
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh...
Hoooh x 12
What about rain
What about all the things
That you said we were to gain
What about killing fields
Is there a time
What about all the things
That you said was yours and mine
Did you ever stop to notice
All the blood we've shared before
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth this weeping shores?
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
What have we done to the world
Look what we've done
What about all the peace
That you pledge your only son
What about flowering fields
Is there a time
What about all the dreams
That you said was yours and mine
Did you ever stop to notice
All the children dead from war
Did you ever stop to notice
This crying Earth this weeping shores
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
I used to dream
I used to glance beyond the stars
Now I don't know where we are
Although I know we've drifted far
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Hey, what about yesterday
(What about us)
What about the seas
(What about us)
The heavens are falling down
(What about us)
I can't even breathe
(What about us)
What about everthing
(What about us)
I have given you
(What about us)
What about nature's worth
(Ooo, ooo)
It's our planet's womb
(What about us)
What about animals
(What about it)
We've turned kingdoms to dust
(What about us)
What about elephants
(What about us)
Have we lost their trust
(What about us)
What about crying whales
(What about us)
We're ravaging the seas
(What about us)
What about forest trails
(Ooo, ooo)
Burnt despite our pleas
(What about us)
What about the holy land
(What about it)
Torn apart by creed
(What about us)
What about the common man
(What about us)
Can't we set him free
(What about us)
What about children dying
(What about us)
Can't you hear them cry
(What about us)
Where did we go wrong
(Ooo, ooo)
Someone tell me why
(What about us)
What about baby boy
(What about it)
What about the days
(What about us)
What about all their joy
(What about us)
What about the men
(What about us)
What about the crying man
(What about us)
What about Abraham
(What was us)
What about death again
(Ooo, ooo)
Do we give a damn
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh
Aaaaaaaaah, Oooooooooh...
Hoooh x 12
Michael J. Jackson 1958- present
Michael Jackson was a cute little kid [now a handsome grown man]. He was stripped his childhood. Which I'm sure he doesn't even remember being that age. But he is a great musician.
1969-1974 [guessed]
Micheal As a Teen. When People thought he was getting uglier and somewhat putting him down down down. That was indeed a wrong thing to let them do. But he does have a perfection problem admitted by himself.
Michael in his Thriller days. his twenties. a great time because he released the Biggest Selling Album Of All Time. Which today, still is. Awesome Guy..
Michael in his days of Bad. He was cute though. Lets see, he met Princess Diana. He made an Good album. Not better than Thriller did.
Dangerous Times. Michael was good in this time. Cute too. Same Ol' Same Ol'.
Michael in his HIStory. Married Lisa Marie Presley.Cool...
Michael NOW!!...He released Thriller 25 and it did okay. Not as well...as Thriller of course. but its all good. Michael has 3 kids and lives in Vegas and is making a very slow comeback. But Its worth the wait so take your time mike!!
Home
Today...a few hours after my first new post. my mom told me that my old friends were outside at my house. probably chit-chatting...so i looked and they were gone..i came out later and they were all in my drive-way and smiling and laughing. one gave me a hug as if she still was cool to me. im ok with her. but the other just kept doing her. which is so fine with me because i don't mind. i don't have anything against her. im just fine. but i do wish i wasnt alone. i want to be happy.
i remember when we were the best of friends. walking. talking. hanging out. until i got sick and tired. i was pretending that our friendship was going GREAT when in reality i was pissed. i wanted so badly to choke her or tell her off. but i needed a friend. and because i told them off i am lonely and don't have a friend in the world to help me out of this misery. i stopped being friends with her because she was so weird. she always was dying her hair and making weird lame jokes. i was just...sick of her. i couldn't take her anymore. i was going to explode. i believe in giving people second chances. like i said before but i just gave her too many chances to count. i was tired of it.
and about the other one. she was my good homie. when me and her cousin was getting along[not the one i mentioned earlier] she is different. doesn't know what she wants. she is too busy focusing on boys. she always gets talked about at school about being in places and smacking lips with boys. i think its wrong. the only boy you should be kissing is your boyfriend. not everyone who thinks you look good.
i remember when we were the best of friends. walking. talking. hanging out. until i got sick and tired. i was pretending that our friendship was going GREAT when in reality i was pissed. i wanted so badly to choke her or tell her off. but i needed a friend. and because i told them off i am lonely and don't have a friend in the world to help me out of this misery. i stopped being friends with her because she was so weird. she always was dying her hair and making weird lame jokes. i was just...sick of her. i couldn't take her anymore. i was going to explode. i believe in giving people second chances. like i said before but i just gave her too many chances to count. i was tired of it.
and about the other one. she was my good homie. when me and her cousin was getting along[not the one i mentioned earlier] she is different. doesn't know what she wants. she is too busy focusing on boys. she always gets talked about at school about being in places and smacking lips with boys. i think its wrong. the only boy you should be kissing is your boyfriend. not everyone who thinks you look good.
Jungle Love
Hello. my name is santana. And i wish there were somewhere i could go to live and be alone and free. and if anyone wanted to join me...i'd let them..just as long as they're not crazy/well anyone. i dont believe anyone is really crazy crazy. i may say it sometimes to get people mad but thats all. it is just a term to make people feel bad. not that i would want anyone to feel bad cause i do anyway. but my anger gets the best of me and i can't help it. i want everyone in the world to be happy. not all of the time but enough to just be okay and well. i want people not to kill eachother. because we are already dying of natural causes or tragic accidents. we dont need people killing eachother over stupid reasons that can be worked out. and if someone puts someone else down for no rreason then they have a problem and they just need someone to talk to. i also believe everyone deserves a second chance. but is it ok to keep doing it and the person is contantly putting you down so much you can't take it. that is so not right. i understand every situation. even though i may not have went through the exact same thing, i can relate to them. and for people with low self asteem. they need to look in the mirror at them selves [in the eyes] and say,'' i am beautiful. i am. i will not let anyone bring me down. people ask why when people say they don't care what people think and then they go cry in their rooms later. that is because either deep down it really hurts or they[me mainly] feel very sorry for that reason...and that they should talk to someone about that or whatever they are going through. all people should love eachother. all people deserve to be happy. that doesn't mean they are or ever will be, but because life isn't fair. we should make the best of what we have. and that doesn't mean if a person is being abused that they should keep being abused, it means they need to get help and leave that segment of their life in the past[when it happened]..don't hold on to things to long or you will be misserable[ms]. just have fun. . . . . .and thats not what im doing. i need to but i'm not. i want friends.[at least one] i want to be surrounded by nature...trees...wild animals that won't kill me. i want the impossible. but maybe in Heaven they contain that. i just want to feel happy. because im not. but i will not give up on my search for happiness... never ever will i let someone ruin that. my dad may not be too involved with me because of his gf. and my mom may be too involved with her own happiness and mental condition to care. and my brother may be him and say cruel things and do unjustly things and my grandmother may be gone and my other grandmother may be either cenile or just old but i will never let them kill my dream. i know what i want. im gonna get it. of course. and that's all folks. bye
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