Jungle Love

Hello. my name is santana. And i wish there were somewhere i could go to live and be alone and free. and if anyone wanted to join me...i'd let them..just as long as they're not crazy/well anyone. i dont believe anyone is really crazy crazy. i may say it sometimes to get people mad but thats all. it is just a term to make people feel bad. not that i would want anyone to feel bad cause i do anyway. but my anger gets the best of me and i can't help it. i want everyone in the world to be happy. not all of the time but enough to just be okay and well. i want people not to kill eachother. because we are already dying of natural causes or tragic accidents. we dont need people killing eachother over stupid reasons that can be worked out. and if someone puts someone else down for no rreason then they have a problem and they just need someone to talk to. i also believe everyone deserves a second chance. but is it ok to keep doing it and the person is contantly putting you down so much you can't take it. that is so not right. i understand every situation. even though i may not have went through the exact same thing, i can relate to them. and for people with low self asteem. they need to look in the mirror at them selves [in the eyes] and say,'' i am beautiful. i am. i will not let anyone bring me down. people ask why when people say they don't care what people think and then they go cry in their rooms later. that is because either deep down it really hurts or they[me mainly] feel very sorry for that reason...and that they should talk to someone about that or whatever they are going through. all people should love eachother. all people deserve to be happy. that doesn't mean they are or ever will be, but because life isn't fair. we should make the best of what we have. and that doesn't mean if a person is being abused that they should keep being abused, it means they need to get help and leave that segment of their life in the past[when it happened]..don't hold on to things to long or you will be misserable[ms]. just have fun. . . . . .and thats not what im doing. i need to but i'm not. i want friends.[at least one] i want to be surrounded by nature...trees...wild animals that won't kill me. i want the impossible. but maybe in Heaven they contain that. i just want to feel happy. because im not. but i will not give up on my search for happiness... never ever will i let someone ruin that. my dad may not be too involved with me because of his gf. and my mom may be too involved with her own happiness and mental condition to care. and my brother may be him and say cruel things and do unjustly things and my grandmother may be gone and my other grandmother may be either cenile or just old but i will never let them kill my dream. i know what i want. im gonna get it. of course. and that's all folks. bye