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When i reached home, I cried. I cried until I couldn't anymore. My sister, Mara, came in the room. She sat on my little palet on the floor since I don't have a bed. She rubbed my hair and I sniffled. ''Why me?'' ''Why you? What do you mean?'' I rolled over on my back and faced her. I felt like i could trust her and she would'nt tell my secrets. ''Have you ever sucked a random man's thing before? Well, f.ck! I did it! I didn't want to I swear!!!'' I cried some more. She looked shocked and extremely disappointed. ''Why? Why would you do that!? Do you want to be like Marise? Huh? Are you trying to fail on purpose? Do you want to not be anything?'' I looked down and almost died. I was ashamed of my self. How could I be so stupid? But i didn't want to though.'' I did not enjoy it if that's what you think! He held me hostage. He asked me my name and pushed me in an alley behind that old building. Do i look like that type? All I wanted was to go home and freshen up because I was invited somewhere.'' ''Where? Who invited you someplace?'' she asked with a serious expression. '' This girl and her ''posse'' at school. They want to make me over so I can be one of them.'' She rolled her eyes and when she got up she said,'' I can't tell you anything. Go if you like, but they are only playing you. They want to use you for some reason I know. I've been there before. ME and all YOUR sisters. We know what its like. I only want to help. I swear......it seems like history repeats itself. And for your information, I have sucked a random man's ''thing'' before. And I didn't enjoy it either.'' My eyes shot open as she closed my door. What? has she been through all i've been through? I sighed and looked at my clock from my great-grandmother, it read 9:51 p.m. I shot up in my blankets and ran to my closet. What would i wear? HMMMM. it didn't matter. She would make me over now. I was ready for a change. I tracked all the way to her place by myself. JOKE! I wasn't aloud to leave the house alone now. I had to walk with TJ. He tried to make light conversation,'' So how was school?'' ''I-I don't want to talk about it. It's no big deal.'' My brother and sisters are the only friends I have. Ifeel i can tell them everything.'' what is it? Tell me...pleassseee.'' I sometimes forget my brother is a big as.s baby. He will not make me spill the beans this time. ''I can't. You'll be mad.'' ''Icould never be mad at you. You are perfect sissy, now you can trust me. We are supposed to be tight. Like a ghetto sistahs corn rows. Tell me whats on yo miiind.'' I laughed at his wittiness. It would be gone as soon as I told him what happened.'' Ok, but you promised you wouldn't get mad so remember that when you're yelling and screaming. TODAY, i wrote a letter about Trey and Maggie read it. And on the w-way........home, i got at-t-tacked by a drunk and...he mad me, suck his.....suck...his..,'' I started to cry mid sentence &nd he grabbed me and held me to his chest. I sobbed as we walked. He held my hand. My superhero he was.