Ok so my so called ''friend'' Zeliegha is such a bitch.. she had the nerve to talk about how i don't got a boyfriend and she do. that's all she think about is boys this and boys that. i'm starting to think she's a hoe. i could have a boyfriend[[anyone could really] but i just choose not to cause all the boys around me are on some major BS. i don't do well with that. just like on monday i'ma let her kno. im not playing with her. she ain't about to talk to me like she want to. im not her child...so on monday when it's just me and her ima tell her to lay off my back because this could get seriously ugly and we supposed to be cool? oh heeelllll to the naww. im not going down like that.
and my other so called''friend'' john. his gay self got a big attitude problem. always getting smart. i don't like to descriminate but he is like sooooooooo gay. he talk about boys and drama, and a lot of other stuff. i don;t do that all the time. he even used to talk about hisself and how he need to get his butt bigger cause it got smallerr???? what type of mess is that? he needs to stop giving me f.cking attitudes.
those are the two ppl that i need to talk to on MONDAY morning. so i'll update and tell you what happened. and who got whooped the most. KIDDING!
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
whoaa
ok so i really hate the way my story is going so i'm reverse it. make it FRESHH.
When we reached Maggie's house the lights were off in the whole house. It was pitch black outside. ''Is somebody home?'' TJ asked. Inodded and walked up to the front door. Maggie opened the door with this big smile on her face.'' Hello....welcome. I thought you'd never show. It's like 12:45 rite now. Where do you live like all the way over on Sheralk Lane?'' I winced at the name of my hood. I hated it that much. I looked over at TJ and he said,''Actually we do-,'' i cut him off before he could ruin my life,''Don't. We live like right out on Terry Street. With the big mansions and things. Yeah...it's nice over there. My house has like 6 bedrooms and 2 unfinished ones. You should come some time.'' I invited her because i knew she would say no because she would probably be embarrassed by her house. Which was not that much of a difference from what I described. I peeked over at TJ and he was staring holes through my face. I knew he was disappointed. I walked into the house but she made TJ leave because she couldn't have boys into her house. LIE, because she always talks about how she had Trey over and all that stuff. It was because he had on his work clothes. I had on my same little sundress from that morning. Ibet she thinksor THOUGHT we're poor. I'll prove her wrong.'' So go upstairs and join the other girls.'' I looked at her retardedl, like what is she doing? She said nothing about other girls. As if she was reading my mind she said,'' No girls from school. Just my sisters and my cousins.'' I walked through the house, lost, trying to find her room.Then I walked passed a room that had a pink door with glitter on it that read: MAGGILICIOUS. This has got to be her room. I opened the door and was shocked. I almost passed out. She had mirrors everywhere. A huge bed smack dabb in the middle and the wall had a painting of her face on it with her name in graffiti. She had a nice little soft looking sofa near the door. It was pink and sky blue. Her room was sos huge and colorful. It was paradise. I then noticed the people. I saw a girl with blonde weave,a heavy- set 20-somthing year old,a girl that had thick pink glasses and skinny jeans with a cute little puppy in her lap, a skinny dark skinned girl in a sundress similar to mine but she had hills on, and last a small little tiny 4 foot 11 girl standing near Maggie's bed arguing with the heavy-set 20 year old.''Mar-mar, no she didn't dude! I know her and she did not do something like that. And thats what's up!'' She rolled her eyes and plopped on the bed. The girl in the skinny jeans with the cute hot pink glasses and matching tee walked over to me. It seemed like she was the only girl who noticed me in the doorway.''Hi, my name is Pookie. I heard some stuff about you giiirrl. BUt anyway, have a seat. You can sit over there.'' She pointed to a lush hot pink chair. I walked over and sat down. Then all of a sudden a big tall skinny woman busted in the room and said,'' HUSH! Now that she is here, ya'll older girls better set some examples. Cut that foolishness out.'' She then turned to me. I had a look of fear in my eyes, i could tell. '' Hi sweetie, my name is Margaret. You may call me Marge. I'm Maggie's mother. Nice to finally meet you.'' I smiled, and she reached her hand out. I shook it and the door then busted open and Maggie pushed her mother out of the way.'' MOM!! SOME PEOPLE ARE OUTSIDE, THEY SAID THEY LOOKING FOR MONEE!! WHERE HE AT? HURRYYY!!!!'' She ran out the room and stomped down the stairs. I was kinda creeped out by all this dramatic stuff. First her room,then her family and mother and now this. What else? BOOM!!!! A gun went off. I sinked into my chair. This is supposed to be a nice neighborhood and a nice get together, not a gang meeting. It's nicer than my hood though. So im not complaining. Everybody left the room and stormed down the steps. I was the only one left so I walked to to the stair rail and peeked down. They were all standing in the living room and Maggie was outside in the street. She was yelling into the window of some car. I was definetly scared now. What is going on? I slowly walked down the stairs and sat on a sofa in the living room. I looked at the expression on everyones face. This is not good.
When we reached Maggie's house the lights were off in the whole house. It was pitch black outside. ''Is somebody home?'' TJ asked. Inodded and walked up to the front door. Maggie opened the door with this big smile on her face.'' Hello....welcome. I thought you'd never show. It's like 12:45 rite now. Where do you live like all the way over on Sheralk Lane?'' I winced at the name of my hood. I hated it that much. I looked over at TJ and he said,''Actually we do-,'' i cut him off before he could ruin my life,''Don't. We live like right out on Terry Street. With the big mansions and things. Yeah...it's nice over there. My house has like 6 bedrooms and 2 unfinished ones. You should come some time.'' I invited her because i knew she would say no because she would probably be embarrassed by her house. Which was not that much of a difference from what I described. I peeked over at TJ and he was staring holes through my face. I knew he was disappointed. I walked into the house but she made TJ leave because she couldn't have boys into her house. LIE, because she always talks about how she had Trey over and all that stuff. It was because he had on his work clothes. I had on my same little sundress from that morning. Ibet she thinksor THOUGHT we're poor. I'll prove her wrong.'' So go upstairs and join the other girls.'' I looked at her retardedl, like what is she doing? She said nothing about other girls. As if she was reading my mind she said,'' No girls from school. Just my sisters and my cousins.'' I walked through the house, lost, trying to find her room.Then I walked passed a room that had a pink door with glitter on it that read: MAGGILICIOUS. This has got to be her room. I opened the door and was shocked. I almost passed out. She had mirrors everywhere. A huge bed smack dabb in the middle and the wall had a painting of her face on it with her name in graffiti. She had a nice little soft looking sofa near the door. It was pink and sky blue. Her room was sos huge and colorful. It was paradise. I then noticed the people. I saw a girl with blonde weave,a heavy- set 20-somthing year old,a girl that had thick pink glasses and skinny jeans with a cute little puppy in her lap, a skinny dark skinned girl in a sundress similar to mine but she had hills on, and last a small little tiny 4 foot 11 girl standing near Maggie's bed arguing with the heavy-set 20 year old.''Mar-mar, no she didn't dude! I know her and she did not do something like that. And thats what's up!'' She rolled her eyes and plopped on the bed. The girl in the skinny jeans with the cute hot pink glasses and matching tee walked over to me. It seemed like she was the only girl who noticed me in the doorway.''Hi, my name is Pookie. I heard some stuff about you giiirrl. BUt anyway, have a seat. You can sit over there.'' She pointed to a lush hot pink chair. I walked over and sat down. Then all of a sudden a big tall skinny woman busted in the room and said,'' HUSH! Now that she is here, ya'll older girls better set some examples. Cut that foolishness out.'' She then turned to me. I had a look of fear in my eyes, i could tell. '' Hi sweetie, my name is Margaret. You may call me Marge. I'm Maggie's mother. Nice to finally meet you.'' I smiled, and she reached her hand out. I shook it and the door then busted open and Maggie pushed her mother out of the way.'' MOM!! SOME PEOPLE ARE OUTSIDE, THEY SAID THEY LOOKING FOR MONEE!! WHERE HE AT? HURRYYY!!!!'' She ran out the room and stomped down the stairs. I was kinda creeped out by all this dramatic stuff. First her room,then her family and mother and now this. What else? BOOM!!!! A gun went off. I sinked into my chair. This is supposed to be a nice neighborhood and a nice get together, not a gang meeting. It's nicer than my hood though. So im not complaining. Everybody left the room and stormed down the steps. I was the only one left so I walked to to the stair rail and peeked down. They were all standing in the living room and Maggie was outside in the street. She was yelling into the window of some car. I was definetly scared now. What is going on? I slowly walked down the stairs and sat on a sofa in the living room. I looked at the expression on everyones face. This is not good.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
continued. sorry 4 the links. they suckk
When i reached home, I cried. I cried until I couldn't anymore. My sister, Mara, came in the room. She sat on my little palet on the floor since I don't have a bed. She rubbed my hair and I sniffled. ''Why me?'' ''Why you? What do you mean?'' I rolled over on my back and faced her. I felt like i could trust her and she would'nt tell my secrets. ''Have you ever sucked a random man's thing before? Well, f.ck! I did it! I didn't want to I swear!!!'' I cried some more. She looked shocked and extremely disappointed. ''Why? Why would you do that!? Do you want to be like Marise? Huh? Are you trying to fail on purpose? Do you want to not be anything?'' I looked down and almost died. I was ashamed of my self. How could I be so stupid? But i didn't want to though.'' I did not enjoy it if that's what you think! He held me hostage. He asked me my name and pushed me in an alley behind that old building. Do i look like that type? All I wanted was to go home and freshen up because I was invited somewhere.'' ''Where? Who invited you someplace?'' she asked with a serious expression. '' This girl and her ''posse'' at school. They want to make me over so I can be one of them.'' She rolled her eyes and when she got up she said,'' I can't tell you anything. Go if you like, but they are only playing you. They want to use you for some reason I know. I've been there before. ME and all YOUR sisters. We know what its like. I only want to help. I swear......it seems like history repeats itself. And for your information, I have sucked a random man's ''thing'' before. And I didn't enjoy it either.'' My eyes shot open as she closed my door. What? has she been through all i've been through? I sighed and looked at my clock from my great-grandmother, it read 9:51 p.m. I shot up in my blankets and ran to my closet. What would i wear? HMMMM. it didn't matter. She would make me over now. I was ready for a change. I tracked all the way to her place by myself. JOKE! I wasn't aloud to leave the house alone now. I had to walk with TJ. He tried to make light conversation,'' So how was school?'' ''I-I don't want to talk about it. It's no big deal.'' My brother and sisters are the only friends I have. Ifeel i can tell them everything.'' what is it? Tell me...pleassseee.'' I sometimes forget my brother is a big as.s baby. He will not make me spill the beans this time. ''I can't. You'll be mad.'' ''Icould never be mad at you. You are perfect sissy, now you can trust me. We are supposed to be tight. Like a ghetto sistahs corn rows. Tell me whats on yo miiind.'' I laughed at his wittiness. It would be gone as soon as I told him what happened.'' Ok, but you promised you wouldn't get mad so remember that when you're yelling and screaming. TODAY, i wrote a letter about Trey and Maggie read it. And on the w-way........home, i got at-t-tacked by a drunk and...he mad me, suck his.....suck...his..,'' I started to cry mid sentence &nd he grabbed me and held me to his chest. I sobbed as we walked. He held my hand. My superhero he was.
so i'll write a story[fictional!)
ok so im writing a story and its drama filled. so enjoy. oh and u know i couldnt stay away not even for 5 days.
Have you ever felt like everyone was against you? Trying to hold you back. BUt you didn't know that they we're only trying to protect you?
What if you don't need protection? Huh? Cause i don't. I really and truly don't. i can handle myself. And i wish my siblings would understand that. I'm just trying to live my life. No one is going to hurt me. Damn! Anyway, i have 2 twin sisters and a brother and another sister. They are all grown and think that I'm just a baby. Why? I don't get it.
[[Samina]
[[Tae]]
[[Mara]]
[[TJ]
I hate them. LET ME TELL YOU WHAT THEY DID! That is the best part. I was walking home with my new bf and TJ pops out of no where in his stupid little sports car and says,'' Get in, you have a dentist appointment for that hot ass breath you breathing.'' He is 19 years old. Shouldn't he be doing something else. I knew i didn't have an appointment. He was checking me. So i looked at him as if i didn't know who he was. I kept walking and he kept on rolling slowly beside us. ''Is this dude bothering you ,babe?'' SCHREECH!! The car stopped. He got out and walked over to my boyfriend Daraun and I sighed. What now? I thought. He was all in Daruan's face talking about how he better step down cause I'm his little sister. And that he'll f.ck him up if he even heard that he did me wrong.
Do i look like a little baby? No i do not. So the moral of this story is. Don't let you big brother control you like I do. He'll ruin your life. I had to break up with him and now people think TJ is crazy and psycho and that he cut Daraun's arm. Daraun had that cut before i even met him. Rumors i tell you.
JULY 18TH - 2005.
I woke up today in my house. My room was a mess and it was only 7:00 am. i quickly jumped up and got dressed.
I ran down stars and grabbed a honey bun. ''Hello!!?'' I yelled to see if anyone of my siblings were home. No answer. You see, my siblings raise me because my mother and father are crackheads. Heaven knows where they are now. They just won't quit. I used to come home and quickly do my homework and run the streets looking for them. I found my mother once and she didn't recognize me. She thought i was a dealer. I cried my way home. I don't think anyone understands the way I feel.
On my way walking to Oak View High, I listened to my little Mp3 that my brother bought me for my 15th birthday a few years ago with his first paycheck. He works at Mcdonald's full time. My sister Mara is working a Hank's Laundry Mat. And my sister Tae works at the gas station up the street from where i live. My other sister Mina is unemployed, she has a bad drinking problem and can't keep a job. She smokes weed all day at her friend Terese's house. '' Move bitch.'' I looked up from my mp3. It was a tall dark and handsome guy, his name was Trey. I love me some Trey. ''I-I-I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it I swear. I'll move.'' ''You got some kind of stuttering problem? I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I loves Harpo, God knows I dooooo.'' All his friends cracked up. I turned away and went straight to my locker. I was in such a hurry because those kids were still laughing. My drawing book/ doodle book slipped and fell to the floor. I tried to bend to retrieve it, but Maggie reached it and snatched it. She was the school's popular girl so to speak. She ran the school, she and her little posse. I honestly couldn't stand her. ''HMMMM! WHAT DO WE HAVE HER, MISS JAYNE? SO YOU LIKE TO DRAW NA? YOU CAN'T DRAW NO BETTAH THAN MY LITTLE COUSIN POOKIE SHE WOULD WHOOP THE BRE-- WHAT IS THIS?'' she loved to talk so loud. Like she was so important. She had just flipped onto a page i doodled in study hall about Trey. I wrote:
''Dear Trey,My love,
We must soon be together
Forever and ever
To love eachother
Hug eachtother
Live our lives in Harmony
[ that would be our daughter's name]
Or live in peace in happiness because
If i can't have you
No one can....
JOKE''
i was mad as hell. Why did she just read my journal to everyone? A tear formed in my eye. It was just a little poem/joke. Who would take it serious, but her, on the count of she is his girlfriend. That was a big mistake. I shouldn't have let her read it. But what could I do? She would probably kill me for it. Since it did have her boyfriend's name in there. When i snapped out of it, everyone was staring at me. I blinked back my tears and grabbed my book. She shook her head and said,''MMMMHH, WHAT A BIG SHAME. YOU ARE TRYING TO PLOT TO KILL ME AND MY MAN. HOW PATHETIC EVERYONE! SHE WANTS TREY-BOO. WELL GUESS WHAT DEAR?'' I looked up and wiped the tear from my little lonely eyes. '' What?'' She flipped her long weave and said,'' HE DON'T WANT YOU! AND IF I EVER CATCH YOU TALKING ABOUT MY MAN, LOOKING AT MY MAN, EVEN THINKING ABOUT MY MAN YOU ARE SO GONE FROM OAK VIEW HIGH!!! SO GO ON AND PACK YOUR BAGS, CAUSE THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE! AIN'T EVEN CLOSE TO OVER BOO-BOO. PEACE! POSSE OUT!'' She snapped her long nailed finger and marched away with LeLe, Bobby, and Marsha in tow.
Throughout the whole entire day, people gave me rude looks and poked their noses in the air. I looked down as usual. Why do people always want to get the wrong idea about me? Am i really a mean person? I always thought i treated people nicely. I guess i'll have to be even nicer to Marsha,LeLe,Bobby, and Maggie. So when I was at my locker getting my HEAVY backpack ready to go home. I got a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and it was none other than Maggie. '' I'm sorry about this morning. I just wanted to scare you. Everybody has been after Trey, i just get so possessive, it's not your fault. How about you come hang around the cool kids now. And if you are gonna be one of us. You've got to look like one of us. SO stop by my house tonight around 10 when everyone is sleep. OK?'' I honestly can say this is the nicest i've ever seen her. She wasn't even that loud or anything. Wow! I just can't believe it. I was speechless so I nodded gently. She patted my boney shoulder and walked away. On my way home, I was still shocked. But I had to leave my shockness behind when I turned into my neighborhood. The roughest and toughest of them all. I lived on Sheralk Lane. There are pitbulls being forced to fight, crackheads roming around, bad asses shooting dice, gang bangers standing around with their pistols in their pants. Ladies selling themselves on the corner, and little kids playing. I was walking and a dumb guy grabbed my backpack and spinned me around. I was afraid, I can tell you that for sure. These guys around here aren't scared of nobody. They'll rape you in front of all these people in the middle of the street. ''What's yo name gul?'' My eyes darted across his face, not wanting to strike him as the hard type. I looked at my shoes and- ''Answer me fo I have to do somethin'! Bitch open yo mouth!!'' I winced at the B word and said,'' Uhhh, Katie. Katie Holmes.'' He wouldn't know that that was an actress. ''Well....KATIE HOLMES, you got a thick a.ss behind on you. You look too right might I add. I bet you been eating them collard greens ya mami made ya. Huhh? Follow me behind this building before I hurt you aiight!!??'' I did as i was told, not thinking about the concequences. He then pushed me on the ground. We were behind a old tarring building. I was huddled up near a garbage heap. He was standing there admiring me.'' Get on you knees.'' I did so, not knowing what to expect when he pulled out his dic.k. I was 3 seconds from tears. '' You know the drill.'' Indid i did. But i still didn't want to do it. He slapped my purse out of my hand as I was reaching to see if I had my cell. I cried out, and tried to scream but her punched me. He then pinned me down and started shoving his penis in my face. I turned my head but he told me to open up. I said, ''NO!!!'' He kicked me and then i heard a click. I looked up and saw a gun. I froze. He pointed it at my nose and said,'' Suck....'' I did but I didn't like it one bit. I cried the entire time. It was a sad day for me.
Have you ever felt like everyone was against you? Trying to hold you back. BUt you didn't know that they we're only trying to protect you?
What if you don't need protection? Huh? Cause i don't. I really and truly don't. i can handle myself. And i wish my siblings would understand that. I'm just trying to live my life. No one is going to hurt me. Damn! Anyway, i have 2 twin sisters and a brother and another sister. They are all grown and think that I'm just a baby. Why? I don't get it.
[[Samina]
[[Tae]]
[[Mara]]
[[TJ]
I hate them. LET ME TELL YOU WHAT THEY DID! That is the best part. I was walking home with my new bf and TJ pops out of no where in his stupid little sports car and says,'' Get in, you have a dentist appointment for that hot ass breath you breathing.'' He is 19 years old. Shouldn't he be doing something else. I knew i didn't have an appointment. He was checking me. So i looked at him as if i didn't know who he was. I kept walking and he kept on rolling slowly beside us. ''Is this dude bothering you ,babe?'' SCHREECH!! The car stopped. He got out and walked over to my boyfriend Daraun and I sighed. What now? I thought. He was all in Daruan's face talking about how he better step down cause I'm his little sister. And that he'll f.ck him up if he even heard that he did me wrong.
Do i look like a little baby? No i do not. So the moral of this story is. Don't let you big brother control you like I do. He'll ruin your life. I had to break up with him and now people think TJ is crazy and psycho and that he cut Daraun's arm. Daraun had that cut before i even met him. Rumors i tell you.
JULY 18TH - 2005.
I woke up today in my house. My room was a mess and it was only 7:00 am. i quickly jumped up and got dressed.
I ran down stars and grabbed a honey bun. ''Hello!!?'' I yelled to see if anyone of my siblings were home. No answer. You see, my siblings raise me because my mother and father are crackheads. Heaven knows where they are now. They just won't quit. I used to come home and quickly do my homework and run the streets looking for them. I found my mother once and she didn't recognize me. She thought i was a dealer. I cried my way home. I don't think anyone understands the way I feel.
On my way walking to Oak View High, I listened to my little Mp3 that my brother bought me for my 15th birthday a few years ago with his first paycheck. He works at Mcdonald's full time. My sister Mara is working a Hank's Laundry Mat. And my sister Tae works at the gas station up the street from where i live. My other sister Mina is unemployed, she has a bad drinking problem and can't keep a job. She smokes weed all day at her friend Terese's house. '' Move bitch.'' I looked up from my mp3. It was a tall dark and handsome guy, his name was Trey. I love me some Trey. ''I-I-I'm so sorry. I didn't mean it I swear. I'll move.'' ''You got some kind of stuttering problem? I-I-I-I-I-I-I-I loves Harpo, God knows I dooooo.'' All his friends cracked up. I turned away and went straight to my locker. I was in such a hurry because those kids were still laughing. My drawing book/ doodle book slipped and fell to the floor. I tried to bend to retrieve it, but Maggie reached it and snatched it. She was the school's popular girl so to speak. She ran the school, she and her little posse. I honestly couldn't stand her. ''HMMMM! WHAT DO WE HAVE HER, MISS JAYNE? SO YOU LIKE TO DRAW NA? YOU CAN'T DRAW NO BETTAH THAN MY LITTLE COUSIN POOKIE SHE WOULD WHOOP THE BRE-- WHAT IS THIS?'' she loved to talk so loud. Like she was so important. She had just flipped onto a page i doodled in study hall about Trey. I wrote:
''Dear Trey,My love,
We must soon be together
Forever and ever
To love eachother
Hug eachtother
Live our lives in Harmony
[ that would be our daughter's name]
Or live in peace in happiness because
If i can't have you
No one can....
JOKE''
i was mad as hell. Why did she just read my journal to everyone? A tear formed in my eye. It was just a little poem/joke. Who would take it serious, but her, on the count of she is his girlfriend. That was a big mistake. I shouldn't have let her read it. But what could I do? She would probably kill me for it. Since it did have her boyfriend's name in there. When i snapped out of it, everyone was staring at me. I blinked back my tears and grabbed my book. She shook her head and said,''MMMMHH, WHAT A BIG SHAME. YOU ARE TRYING TO PLOT TO KILL ME AND MY MAN. HOW PATHETIC EVERYONE! SHE WANTS TREY-BOO. WELL GUESS WHAT DEAR?'' I looked up and wiped the tear from my little lonely eyes. '' What?'' She flipped her long weave and said,'' HE DON'T WANT YOU! AND IF I EVER CATCH YOU TALKING ABOUT MY MAN, LOOKING AT MY MAN, EVEN THINKING ABOUT MY MAN YOU ARE SO GONE FROM OAK VIEW HIGH!!! SO GO ON AND PACK YOUR BAGS, CAUSE THIS SHIT RIGHT HERE! AIN'T EVEN CLOSE TO OVER BOO-BOO. PEACE! POSSE OUT!'' She snapped her long nailed finger and marched away with LeLe, Bobby, and Marsha in tow.
Throughout the whole entire day, people gave me rude looks and poked their noses in the air. I looked down as usual. Why do people always want to get the wrong idea about me? Am i really a mean person? I always thought i treated people nicely. I guess i'll have to be even nicer to Marsha,LeLe,Bobby, and Maggie. So when I was at my locker getting my HEAVY backpack ready to go home. I got a tap on my shoulder. I turned around and it was none other than Maggie. '' I'm sorry about this morning. I just wanted to scare you. Everybody has been after Trey, i just get so possessive, it's not your fault. How about you come hang around the cool kids now. And if you are gonna be one of us. You've got to look like one of us. SO stop by my house tonight around 10 when everyone is sleep. OK?'' I honestly can say this is the nicest i've ever seen her. She wasn't even that loud or anything. Wow! I just can't believe it. I was speechless so I nodded gently. She patted my boney shoulder and walked away. On my way home, I was still shocked. But I had to leave my shockness behind when I turned into my neighborhood. The roughest and toughest of them all. I lived on Sheralk Lane. There are pitbulls being forced to fight, crackheads roming around, bad asses shooting dice, gang bangers standing around with their pistols in their pants. Ladies selling themselves on the corner, and little kids playing. I was walking and a dumb guy grabbed my backpack and spinned me around. I was afraid, I can tell you that for sure. These guys around here aren't scared of nobody. They'll rape you in front of all these people in the middle of the street. ''What's yo name gul?'' My eyes darted across his face, not wanting to strike him as the hard type. I looked at my shoes and- ''Answer me fo I have to do somethin'! Bitch open yo mouth!!'' I winced at the B word and said,'' Uhhh, Katie. Katie Holmes.'' He wouldn't know that that was an actress. ''Well....KATIE HOLMES, you got a thick a.ss behind on you. You look too right might I add. I bet you been eating them collard greens ya mami made ya. Huhh? Follow me behind this building before I hurt you aiight!!??'' I did as i was told, not thinking about the concequences. He then pushed me on the ground. We were behind a old tarring building. I was huddled up near a garbage heap. He was standing there admiring me.'' Get on you knees.'' I did so, not knowing what to expect when he pulled out his dic.k. I was 3 seconds from tears. '' You know the drill.'' Indid i did. But i still didn't want to do it. He slapped my purse out of my hand as I was reaching to see if I had my cell. I cried out, and tried to scream but her punched me. He then pinned me down and started shoving his penis in my face. I turned my head but he told me to open up. I said, ''NO!!!'' He kicked me and then i heard a click. I looked up and saw a gun. I froze. He pointed it at my nose and said,'' Suck....'' I did but I didn't like it one bit. I cried the entire time. It was a sad day for me.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
WAHTEVAA
oh and about me staying off until december.
IT OFFICIALLY STARTS NOW.
I WAS JUST SOOO BORED.
I HAD TO BLOG ABOUTIT.
IT WAS THE ONLY THING TO DO/
SO I DID IT.
NOW BYEE.
[KISSES)
XOXO
IT OFFICIALLY STARTS NOW.
I WAS JUST SOOO BORED.
I HAD TO BLOG ABOUTIT.
IT WAS THE ONLY THING TO DO/
SO I DID IT.
NOW BYEE.
[KISSES)
XOXO
incredible pizza...
i wanted to go but none of my friends are sure they can go. i really wanna go too.
and im soooo hungry too. uggghhhhhhhhhhh!!
and im soooo hungry too. uggghhhhhhhhhhh!!
Sunday, November 9, 2008
but......
''if knowledge is the key then show me the lock.''
anyway today was quite......BORING.
nothing was accomplished.
i had spaghetti
that was good but messy because i loooovvve past.a
i swear i'm italian [lol]
anyway. itook so many photo's today.
they look cute.
i know i look so rite in dhem.
i wish i had an f--king bed to sleep in. gosh
im sleeping in a room widh my moms.
dhat sucks.
well..............................this post has no purpose.
it was just to waste ur time.
goo'day
wait!!
this is my last post for this month.
i'll do a recap of waht happened on December 1st.
ANYWAY.
bye..[kissesszz] xoxox
anyway today was quite......BORING.
nothing was accomplished.
i had spaghetti
that was good but messy because i loooovvve past.a
i swear i'm italian [lol]
anyway. itook so many photo's today.
they look cute.
i know i look so rite in dhem.
i wish i had an f--king bed to sleep in. gosh
im sleeping in a room widh my moms.
dhat sucks.
well..............................this post has no purpose.
it was just to waste ur time.
goo'day
wait!!
this is my last post for this month.
i'll do a recap of waht happened on December 1st.
ANYWAY.
bye..[kissesszz] xoxox
Thursday, November 6, 2008
i'm supposed to b in the sack...
ok so im supposed to be sleep now, but i need to get some more stuff off my chest and here is the best place to do it...
i feel like my friend Josh* has been getting on my nerves, he always thinks he's better than somebody. he's gay! he could never be better than anybody. not because of the fact that he is gay but because he has flaws. and i know most of em. i could point everyone of them out. but im not that type. so i won't. lucky for him. last year he revealed too much information to me. and now he has a new friend. her name is zana*. she thinks she is just the flyest thang. but i love her anyway. shes my friend as well. but she annoys me too. she has her ways. i think all my friends secretly annoy me. well most of them. but josh annoys me to the point where i want to stab him sometimes. he lies and cracks the nastiest jokes. who does he think he is. i told him i'll on send him rude remarks if he does the same to me. do unto others as you would have them do unto you. so in other words. dont mess with me and i wont mess with you or dont start nothing or its gonna be something. i've learned that you can't go a week without some drama at my school. it is just the way it is. my school will never change. i wish i could make a change. like barack obama. i'd be the female version. we can make a change at my school i hope. i know i said we will never change but we will. we have to. or things will just get worse and worse until it all ends. and i hate to say it but its the reality of it all..BYE
i feel like my friend Josh* has been getting on my nerves, he always thinks he's better than somebody. he's gay! he could never be better than anybody. not because of the fact that he is gay but because he has flaws. and i know most of em. i could point everyone of them out. but im not that type. so i won't. lucky for him. last year he revealed too much information to me. and now he has a new friend. her name is zana*. she thinks she is just the flyest thang. but i love her anyway. shes my friend as well. but she annoys me too. she has her ways. i think all my friends secretly annoy me. well most of them. but josh annoys me to the point where i want to stab him sometimes. he lies and cracks the nastiest jokes. who does he think he is. i told him i'll on send him rude remarks if he does the same to me. do unto others as you would have them do unto you. so in other words. dont mess with me and i wont mess with you or dont start nothing or its gonna be something. i've learned that you can't go a week without some drama at my school. it is just the way it is. my school will never change. i wish i could make a change. like barack obama. i'd be the female version. we can make a change at my school i hope. i know i said we will never change but we will. we have to. or things will just get worse and worse until it all ends. and i hate to say it but its the reality of it all..BYE
haven't been on in forever......
i'm pissed. we had a game today and everybody was having fun. i found out that i need to start lifting weights or something because i'm weak. john was there,so was zeligha,kiana,tiera,gerry,lorenzo,everybody. but then after the game. we were headed to the parking lot and my friend, i saw her and went up to her and she said she was mad at me. i said why. she said she had to tell me something. i said ok. what? and she said she would tell me later and then i said ok. i started playing with her like i usually do and she said don't talk to her anymore. isaid why. she said she was serious and now im confused. we were cool earlier and now she hates me? what? when me and my brother was walking away. she said she got me tommorow. i was like what? what do she mean? i hope she not bout to try to fight me. me and her were real cool and now she want to fight me? i'm not about to fight her. she can talk about me or whatever. whatever she heard that she won't tell me is whatever. she not telling me so i can't help her. and if she believed it. ican't help her/
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